?

Log in

muggled madness [entries|archive|friends|userinfo]
about_a_girl90

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ archive | journal archive ]

hmm... [Feb. 23rd, 2006|03:53 pm]
about_a_girl90
[mood |annoyedannoyed]
[music |tegan and sara- days and days]

wow...so..its been..awhile. there has been so much to say, but i find that writing is no longer a thing that i find myself doing. You can only say so much and it doesnt change a thing. Do you ever feel like your just...there..like everything is going on around you but you're standing still...waiting for something to happen...just feel like there must be something more out there...somewhere...well i do...quit often actually. so my parents and i are thinking about moving at the end of this year..u know start off somewhere new ..its always good to go somewhere where nobody knows you...u can be whoever u want...and plus..new ppl...new situaions..new..life...hmm sounds better and better...idk. i mean its gonna be sad leaving the ones i love but i just dont see olney as a place where im ..wanted/needed. so that leaves me to ...ummm...well wat does that leave me to...oh well...i think ive said enough...ill ttyl
link1 comment|post comment

"I'm Sorry" [Jan. 25th, 2006|07:02 pm]
about_a_girl90
[mood |indescribableindescribable]

"I'm Sorry"

"Im sorry", those words come so fluently from you, you mean them this i know, but wat good is it? you wont do anything about it, even though you tryed, there is no use in it, im no longer going to cry. I liked you, maybe even loved, i was so infatuated with you, i just couldnt get enough. but you made the choice, to not move on,now im gone......
link2 comments|post comment

(no subject) [Jan. 25th, 2006|10:08 am]
about_a_girl90
[mood |stressedstressed]

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck!
linkpost comment

.....wat to more to say.... [Jan. 22nd, 2006|08:07 pm]
about_a_girl90
[mood |exhaustedexhausted]
[music |;fasdkfj;sad]

Wow so this weekend was pretty shitty....there were some highlights...but they are going to remain silent...so yeah...lets jus say im goin to have a headache for a verty long time....grrr...syd u and i always get into trouble...exspecially when were together..hehe..oh well...so...People ask me why its so hard to trust people, i ask them why its so hard to keep a promise?

I sit in the darkness not afraid to experience love and happiness, but afraid of what comes after.. rejection or forever...neither one can be predicted, neither one can be fortold...so i try to take that chance, i really do..but then....i have to ask myself..is it worth it..why be happy to be knocked down again..why try when u know the outcome...why?
link1 comment|post comment

(no subject) [Jan. 17th, 2006|07:46 pm]
about_a_girl90
[music |Death Cab for Cutie]

To you know who....from me.....
Falling Here I lie in wait. To see to hear you. But I keep falling. Falling away from the light. I hear your voice. It grows fainter. As I go deeper into the darkness. I feel cold I can not see. I wish I could feel your warmth. But it has diminshed. With the smile on your face. There I go deeper and deeper. Into the darkness I fade.....'

well things are getting better i suppose...life is still hard to handle but it can only get so bad before it has to get better.......
link2 comments|post comment

(no subject) [Jan. 16th, 2006|12:57 pm]
about_a_girl90
[mood |crappycrappy]

wow so its been awhile....and ive got so much to say..and im fuckig lazy so im going to copy and paste from my xanga site....so yeah...fun stuff...
Humm....where to start...well huh...u know that point in time when u feel like life is so shitty and u sit back to jus look at how shitty life actually is...well i think ive hit that stage....then u try to reflect back to better times and get lost and cant find them...well there ya go!....i iknow i should like sum depressed emo kid well hey maybe thats wat i am...or maybe i just have a good enough god damn reason to be like this.....so theres a guy ,at which im in love with, lol...and he likes another girl..a slut...and theres a guy who likes me but my best friend likes him....and so fourth this circle of love is pretty shitty and never moving......so last night i went to the concert at cc's...and sum big guy hit me and i fell and hit my head and blacked out...fun stuff...i ws ready for more but catlin wouldnt let me ..how nice of her....Sydney spent the night with me. and were goin to o-cup today to morn over things that will never happen....ha ha....i wish life ws better, can it get worse,? im srue it could and i know u ppl r thinking u dont have it bad ...well i fucking do and anybody who doesnt beleive it can just get the fuck out of my site....HA HA....lol...jk..i love you all.....so yeah ...im seriously thinking about moving...not sure where to or with which family member but im so sick of this town....i jsut want out

.......until then
link2 comments|post comment

(no subject) [Jan. 2nd, 2006|08:30 pm]
about_a_girl90
I am 64% Emo.
Emo Kid  ...sniff.
Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.
link2 comments|post comment

Isn't Something missing [Jan. 2nd, 2006|08:00 pm]
about_a_girl90
[mood |indescribableindescribable]
[music |Evanescence-Missing]

You and i both know we'll never be, a dream maybe , a wonderful thought ....but realizing that we wont hurts more than the thought of not knowing. I wish I could change this but im afraid ive ran out of solutions, neither of us want to risk it...We know we would be happier with each other yet that doesnt change anything....so forever we will pretend , pretend and hope it goes away... it wont ever go away yet as time passes it will sink down and not be as hard. Even though its hidden its still there, as it always will be . We cant ingnore it...ignore us. Its there. ......

Evanescence- Missing

Please, please forgive me~but i wont be home again~Maybe someday you'll know a girl~and barely concious you'll say to no one~Isnt something missing?You won't cry for my absence I know~You forgot me long ago~Am I that unimportant?Am I so in significant? Isn't something missing~Isn't someone missing?

Even though I'm the sacrifice*You won't try for me not now*Though I'd die to know you love me*I'm all alone*Isn't someone missing me?
linkpost comment

(no subject) [Jan. 1st, 2006|07:50 am]
about_a_girl90
[mood |chipperchipper]
[music |Nirvana]

Wow so im here with Tanea its like 7:50 a.m...... fun stuff,fun stuff....so yeah new years was lame right randy..lol....yeah oh well that pizza gave me the shits..hehe...lol so anyways my mom ws drunk off her ass and pissed me off....i let her know it...ill prob. be grounded so randy if we cant come ova today its not my fault...lol well were goin on a walk..seeings as you can see now that its daylight. later
linkpost comment

(no subject) [Dec. 27th, 2005|04:51 am]
about_a_girl90

my pet!
link1 comment|post comment

navigation
[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]